Mostly it doesn’t feel much different. Physically or
emotionally.
It sure looks strange, though.
If I were 20 years (or more) younger, it would probably have
had a much different emotional effect.
When I was still conscious of my sexual image, this physical loss would
have been more difficult to handle. I’m
very glad that I didn’t have to cope with it then. But two months before my 71st
birthday, sexual image is a just a memory.
I’m far beyond high heels, push-up bras, short skirts, etc. The beach will never see me in a bikini again
(and hasn’t for many years now).
But I do want to present a public image of normalcy. I got my first “training bra” last Friday. The first post-mastectomy bra is a very soft
cotton affair that has pockets on both sides for a pad. (It also has a pocket to hold my drain). The
pad is very soft so as to not irritate the incision. So I don’t look lopsided.
That eliminates any self consciousness Here’s a pic from a catalog.
Once I’ve healed sufficiently, I’ll graduate to bras that
look like “normal” bras like this one.
These also have pockets on both sides. Instead of just a
pad, I’ll have a prosthesis that has approximately the same look, feel, and
weight as a breast. The prostheses come in various sizes so I should end up
looking pretty balanced.
The good news is that Medicare covers the cost of up to 6
bras and 2 prostheses per year.
Eventually I’ll also get a bathing suit that has pockets for
my fake boob, but Medicare won’t pay for that.
The bottom line is that, everything considered, it’s no big
deal.
Wow. Very functional. Hey, now you have a place to put your lipstick when you don't have pockets in your outfit. The bright side of things right? :)
ReplyDeleteI'm glad this part of the process isn't causing any additional distress. You continue to amaze me mommy. <3
I'll second Karen's comment. Your positive approach is wonderful.
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